leaving. . . for real.

these past few weeks have been a blur.. i dont know how it went from being 47 days .. to 32 days.. to 12 days till i leave. its crazy. seems like it was only a couple days ago i was filling out the application and praying to be accepted. .

well, naturally, i am nervous... scared.. for sure i have thought over my decision to go,.. contemplating if i am making the right choice.. leaving my family. boyfriend and every thing i know and love for 7 months.. where i will have to meet and make friends with new people, be under the care of people i have only known threw brief email conversations. . but most of all put my whole life in God's hands and completely trust him. . And after many tears, prayer and talks i have decided this is something i need to do.. i am so excited to see what God has in store for me.

this will probably be the last blog i write until i am actually over in ireland... and when i am over there i dont know how often i will get to write. . but please continue to pray for me.. for my safety, that i will connect well with my leaders and team mates . .

i remember when i was going on my trip to colombia our team had to memorize a few verses from James.. and now that i look back on these verses i think they work well for my time in ireland.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. ⁴Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. ⁶But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

the scariest thing is realizing that i am leaving .. for real . ..